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Yes, this may seem like an...odd choice for me. After all, I am a NUDE model, photographer and a nudist at heart.
I'm sorry to spoil your dreams, but I wasn't always so awesome. In high school, I dressed from Abercrombie, American Eagle and Macy's. All of my clothes were second-hand, from my cousin, but they were fashionable enough I was never teased for my fashion. Along with this indeterminate style, came a love of teen magazines and "doing my nails". Being pretty and popular, in other words.
I was always fighting with being a little chubby and being fat was HORRIFYING! I dieted and fought with what I ate -- at some point in senior year, I just gave up eating altogether and made it down to a size 13/14 @ 135 pounds!
Just so you're all aware, this is not skinny. I'm not made to be skinny. I'm hippy, hips that go on for miles. And when I was starving myself, I was a very unhappy person. I like food. I like eating. Who doesn't? Ice cream, pizza, cake....c'mon it's all delicious! I missed it, but I didn't want to be fat.
At the peak of my physical fitness, I had a real sports injury happen (while at church while playing dodge ball, if you need to know) -- I tore my ACL. It's the stabilizing tendon that sits on top of your knee. It keeps your knee from going all wobbly when you turn and pivot. This injury kept me from working out, getting any real exercise, for over a year during the healing, resulting surgery and then more healing/rehab. I have a lovely scar, which you can probably see in some of my photos. I don't photoshop it out.
So that's the story of how I really lost my battle against fat. That, and about 1000 gallons of ice cream while sitting around at home doing nothing. I'm surprised I'm not fatter, honestly.
No, actually I'm not surprised. I work out, I eat relatively healthy and I try not to binge on food. I try not to use food to work out the problems I'm having internally.
Okay, so we're up to date on my fat history. None of this explains about the fashion thing, but it will. My issue is you can't find fashion for fat people like you can for skinny people. I don't dress like an earth mother because that's all I want to wear, but because I'm not exactly "diva" or "professional" and those are my other options.
Here's my objection, with example:
Forever 21 has a top I like --> www.forever21.com/Product/Prod…
It would look good on me from the "fat" point of view, but it comes in three sizes. X-Small, Small, and Medium.
Oh yes, did you see Forever 21 has a new plus-sized online shop? Do they have ANY of the same things?
Oh hell no!
No, Forever 21 doesn't know how to dress a plus-size body, so they stick with boxy basics. Plain colored shirts, pants and dresses. They're worried about fat people wearing their designs. Boo freakin' who. I'd rock that outfit!
There are plus-size stores -- the simple fact that I have to go to a store for my own fat-kind is a little insulting, but at least everyone THERE understands.
I love Torrid --> www.torrid.com/torrid/Homepage…
(but it's overpriced)
I just bought this lovely green dress for the MotoGP weekend I'm about to have in Indianapolis --> www.torrid.com/torrid/Dresses/…
And it's lovely, yes? And it's on sale! WOO!
I guess my point is, you never see any of the regular fashion magazines advertising for fat girls. It's sad because we have a HUGE spending power.
Oh...wait, that wasn't meant to be a pun! NO, NOT THE PUNNNNN! 
If the fashion industry too 15 minutes to do the math, they'd see we're worth advertising revenue. Oh, and coincidentally, I know this awesome plus-size model who would LOVE to put on some fashionable clothes. Or, you know, take them off. Either way! 
This journal was inspired by the lovely and incomparable Gabourey Sidibe! And an article written about her in the Harper Bazaar photo shoot -->
Much love to her, the universe and the lovely fat people of the world,
Lizzie
Art Features - April 2015
Rheumatic -- A very lovely piece about a woman struggling with Rheumatoid Arthritis.
The above photo pretty accurately describes how I feel most days.
Much love,
:heart: Lizzie
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It doesn't really matter if you believe in a higher power or not. Your love, good thoughts, prayers...whatever you have available, would be much appreciated.
The treatment isn't going well. I'm at a pretty high dosage of chemotherapy and my body isn't responding to it. It keeps me functional, I suppose. I haven't missed much work, other than frequent infections and a persistent cough that won't go away. I guess it's a blessing, in a way. If I had found out all of this with a significant other involved, children or a house...how would I feel then? The fact is, my prognosis is pretty poor. I can't get off my medication long enough to have chil
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Hello my darlings~~
To those who were not aware, I have been diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis, which is an autoimmune degenerative disease where my immune system decides to attack my joints. First, it started in my hands and now it has progressed to my feet. I started treatment, which is an immuno-suppressant -- in other words, chemotherapy.
Chemotherapy is...it's poison. I mean there's no other way to describe the way it makes you feel. The closest I can describe it is getting the flu, but it's the only thing I've experienced which is close enough. Needless to say there's some side effects I've been feeling: nausea, vomiting, hair loss
Nude art is not pornography
Happy Cinco de Mayo!
So, my darlings,
We must have a talk.
I know we have gone over this in various conversations, long-winded replies, multiple journals, etc.... but apparently I haven't beaten this dead horse well enough.
....(frustrated huff)....
***If you are messaging me in any regard concerning my availability to do pornography/explicit poses, you are not understanding the purpose of my art!***
On my front page, the following is listed under my deviantID artist info:
"MISSION STATEMENT:
To promote love and acceptance of our fellow human beings no matter their size, gender, race, or religion and realizing no other person should b
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What a beautiful life story. You know it's a funny thing but even though I love "fat" people it has taken me a long time to get used to being comfortable with the word "fat". I'm not sure if I am yet. And this is spite of the fact, as I am sure you know, that "fat" chicks are my favorite photographic subjects. Much of this comes from the fact that my mother was fat and in turn I married a lovely fat girl who was my high school sweet heart. (you know her as "Lu")
I am thankful for ladies like you who can stand up proudly and say to the world, hey folks, look at me I'm fat and I'm beautiful. This has very little to do with the fashion industry who just has not woke up to the fact that there are many fat folks out there who actually have money to spend on more fashionable clothes. Now having said that I much prefer that naked lady body look but tha't another story.
Now I have a question for you. why, in my quest for "plus" (ok fat) models there seemingly aren't any. Or at least many? Lately all who have contacted me, and there have been several, are from somewhere else. And sadly, because of my limited retirement income, I can't afford to travel far and wide.
Sorry, dear Lizzie, I have turned your rant into my own. That said, I will step down off my soap box and take my leave.
I am thankful for ladies like you who can stand up proudly and say to the world, hey folks, look at me I'm fat and I'm beautiful. This has very little to do with the fashion industry who just has not woke up to the fact that there are many fat folks out there who actually have money to spend on more fashionable clothes. Now having said that I much prefer that naked lady body look but tha't another story.
Now I have a question for you. why, in my quest for "plus" (ok fat) models there seemingly aren't any. Or at least many? Lately all who have contacted me, and there have been several, are from somewhere else. And sadly, because of my limited retirement income, I can't afford to travel far and wide.
Sorry, dear Lizzie, I have turned your rant into my own. That said, I will step down off my soap box and take my leave.